As awesome as photography is, and as alluring as a job title like “photographer” sounds, there’s a major caveat that comes with the job: you kind of have to spend a few years just sucking really hard before anyone is willing to pretend to take you seriously (it’s a snooty profession, folks) and before you actually start taking decent images on a consistent basis.
At least, this is how the world of model photography works.
Even if you have a great eye and fantastic concepts, you’re still going to suck first. Obviously, you aren’t going to dive into this inevitable learning curve willingly, so first you’ll vehemently defend yourself against every critic (which is every other photographer that looks at your work with the intention to make you insecure and self-loathing (I told you, it’s NOT a nice industry), become a social pariah in some way, go on hiatus and spring back a month later, ready to do it all again.
Why do you keep doing this? Other than passion, masochism and self-loathing? Because eventually you notice — and so do other people — that you don’t really suck anymore, or at least as much as you did. Hey, a compliment! Seriously? Yeah, once again, the industry is COLD… but it’s enough to prevent you from throwing your equipment off of a cliff, and you shoot some more. It’s a cycle. It’s a horrible, vicious cycle. It’s an inevitable cycle, and it’s just the way it is.